Dear Anonymous …
thank you so much for taking the trouble to read my long ‘Conversions and De-conversions’ story, and for replying with your thoughtful comments. I too had to leave Calvary Chapel of Albuquerque back in the early 1990s - 1993 if I remember correctly. It became too big, too fast – the hypocrisy, the guilt, the Cult of Personality surrounding Pastor Skip – it was all driving me crazy. The School of ministry at Calvary Chapel Albuquerque opened around 1990, and I was very tempted to sign up in its inaugural semester. I did not have the money at the time.
When were you there? It is possible that we have met.
But your attitude sounds like the one I had when I left Calvary Chapel in 1993. I still believed in God, in Jesus, but I was burned out on Christians, on religion, on Christian culture. I continued to believe in God, in one form or another, for another 15 years. Your attitude though, and the way you write, sounds so similar to mine around 1994 or so.
THE END? I hope not. I just turned 50 years old last week. My wife Rosemary and I continue to grow closer to each other, and I have a new appreciation for the discoveries of life after completely leaving my Christian Faith. There was once a time, especially upon leaving Christianity, that I posted blog articles at a ridiculous pace. These days, I rarely post articles because I am content with my life, and I don’t feel compelled to write about doubt, unbelief and the outrage of leaving religious belief that I once felt. THE END? As I get older, I hope to enter a new chapter in my life. Right now though, I just do not see belief in a Deity being a part of it.